The reason I write

I think the reason I write is because it takes me out of the real world. I stop feeling lonely, sad, depressed. When I watch Supernatural, it distracts me for a while, but after an episode it makes me think about my life. Sometimes I just want to pack up and leave without telling anyone. Just take Coco, Jade, and April with me and leave. I'd turn off my phone, not even go on Facebook... I want to see who would actually worry about me, who would actually care. I mean, I feel lonely all the time. I feel like nobody truly understands me. People try to get into my head, but they don't actually understand like they claim they do. Sometimes I cry so much, but I really have nothing to complain about. I have gotten everything I have ever wanted. I wanted a puppy? Done. I wanted a pony? Got it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a spoiled little bitch. I mean, my dad doesn't give me EVERYTHING... but I still feel like I have a pretty great life... But if my life is so great, why do I feel so lonely? My parents are divorced, my mom lives in Nevada and I've lived with my dad since I was 7. He has always been there for me. My first heartbreak he held me in his lap until I stopped crying. Every time I had a bad dream, I knew my dad was there for me. I see my mom more times than most kids with divorced parents do. I feel as though movies have made my expectations of life way too high. But not just me, other people too. In a movie, you expect that the first person you meet or maybe even the second, is your significant other. but in all reality, you will go through many heartbreaks before you find the one you will spend the rest of your life with. Maybe that's why I'm always so depressed; because I expect my life to turn out like a movie. I don't know, but I know that writing helps me. I love being transported into another story, somebody's story that isn't mine. Thanks for taking your time in reading this. xD