More venting.

Honestly right now, I am done. I'm done with people, I'm done with school, I'm just done with life. I mean I have thought about suicide and if people would care if I was gone, but I just think that life might get better. I mean I am always there for my friends and I always let them vent to me... but then when I vent to them, I feel as if they could care less. I mean I love life because of Supernatural. I know, weird thing to say. But the show really has changed my life. as much as I feel like I'm important, I know that I'm not. Not really. I mean what have I done to change society? Nothing. So what would it matter if I just, you know, died? Well, not saying I'm going to commit suicide, but I just get these thoughts. Like who else just feels unimportant? I know that I'm not the only one. But NO, I do NOT cut. I feel as if that is stupid and pointless. Like why the fuck would you cut yourself? What does it do for you? I know, I sound like a depressed teenager begging for attention. and maybe, deep down I am. But right now, no. I'm not begging for attention. I just need somewhere to vent and if someone out there is reading this and feels the same, no, you are not alone.